Thursday 23 February 2017

The Many Lives of Casey L. Miller by REBELSOUL

7:15pm
Dark times approached, as everyone waited in anticipation. Their hearts beat rapidly with eyes glued to the screen. Today was the day of the drawing, to learn who the lucky son of a bitch was that won the chance of a lifetime. Not everyone wanted the prize, but most also did. Whoever won was going to be the number one target of many desperate people. However to protect this person, the government concealed their identity and winning social security number. They merely revealed the name of the winner on national television.
What followed that was only to be expected.
The newscaster was a bleached blond, curvy woman. Her big blue doe eyes, filled with horror and slight anger, as she read off the emergency broadcast. Her bubbly voice was close to sobbing, as she said, "Due to the content of these images, we have been informed that we cannot reveal them on live TV. The whole country was in an uproar, total anarchy, as the search, or should I say, manhunt has begun to find the person, who won the lottery for no taxes for life. So the question remains, who is Casey L. Miller?"
The channel flipped to the next news station. A man shouted over gunfire. His black hair was a mess from his nervously brushing his fingers through it. "It is a mad house here in the city, gangs and mobs of people are out firing at one another. They are all desperate to find this one person. Advice to anyone named Casey is to take shelter anywhere. Everyone is warned not to step outside!" He fell to the floor, as a series of shots rang out relatively close by. The man stood up again and directed the camera to a distant rooftop. "As you can see, even law enforcement is having a tough time rounding these people up. They even have to crack down and use fire hoses and tear gas to force them back!"
The television shut off, as a lady rushed past a little girl sitting on the couch. "Logan, I told you not to turn on the television. We want the house to appear vacant to the people outside." Logan remained silent. Today was a strange day to her. She didn’t understand what all the fuss was about.
She was familiar with violence, because she was a girl who lived downtown in the city with her mother. Last night her mother received a strange call followed by a visit from a strange man at the door. After that, her mother told Logan to gather her belongings. She was going to live with her sister. She lived in a small country house in the woods outside the city. After that, her mother went out and has yet to return.
Her sister closed the blinds to all the windows and locked the door. She pushed several pieces of furniture against the door.
"Ca-," Logan began but her voice immediately cut off.
"You have to wait until the violence dies down." The sister told the little girl not to say her name at all costs. She picked Logan up, rushed her into the back room and locked the door behind them. She pushed the dresser to block that door too.
"Why do we have to block the door?" Logan asked, as she jumped on the bed, before her sister's glaring eyes forced her to stop.
"It is for if anyone breaks into the house, they can’t get in here." She pulled out a .44 caliber pistol out of the dresser and put it on the edge of the bed, "and if someone does, we are prepared."
Logan looked at the gun and then back at her older sister. "What’s so great about no taxes anyway that people have to kill for it?" Her older sister laughed and gave the little girl an adoring look.
"You’ll understand when you are older." She hugged the little girl and then hushed, "now let us get some sleep until mother comes back."
Logan watched as the clock ticked by. She closed her eyes around 7:30pm.
9:25pm
A rapid knocking sounded on the door, "Please, somebody?" A lady’s voice abruptly woke Logan and her sister.
"Somebody help, please I need help," the knocking increased rapidly. They heard sobs from outside.
Logan turned to her sister, who grabbed the gun. "Stay here Logan. I will be back, when I see what is going on." Her sister pushed the dresser, as much as she needed to squeeze through the door and disappeared down the hall. Logan ran to the door and peeked through to see. Her sister holding the gun tightly sneaked up to the door.
"Please, there are people out here, with guns. They are shooting everyone they see, please!"
Logan’s sister opened the blinds slightly to see a lady in tears outside. Before she could close them again, the lady saw her.
The knocking turned to frantic banging, "please let me in, please let me in, please let me in! I don't want to die!"
The older sister bit her tongue. She started to push her blockade away. When she opened the door, instead of seeing a distressed lady crying, she faced a cold calm glare and a gun directed at her head.
"Hello, that prize is mine now." With that, the stranger pulled the trigger. She watched coldly as the girl fell to the floor her brains splattered on the carpet.
Logan cringed at the gunshot. She quickly slammed the door shut and began to shove the dresser back to block the door.
The lady heard the door slam shut. She was well aware of the other person in the house, but she took her time. If the other person were a threat, they would have been the one to check the door not the weak and pathetic girl at her feet.
"It is a good thing I knew some of the best hackers in the city. They gave me the social security number that won the raffle. The address was pretty close too. This was almost too easy I swear." The lady laughed to herself and strolled to the back room.
She lightly knocked on the door, "I suggest you come out, otherwise I will come in there and blow your brains out as well."
Logan hesitated and peeked through a crack in the open door. The lady yanked the door wide open and snatched the girl’s dark brown hair. Logan yelped a surprised cry and she met the barrel of the gun at eye level.
"Now listen here, you little bitch. That prize is mine. From now on, I am Casey Miller. You’re going to do exactly what I say. Otherwise, you’re going to end up like that one right there." She pulled Logan’s hair up enough that she barely could stand on her tiptoes. Tears clouded her vision, as she stared at the crumpled body of her older sister.
"C-Ca cas," She mumbled trying to call out.
"Shut up! Not another peep from you." 'Casey' towed the girl down the hall and threw the girl onto the floor. She looked up to find the trap door that led to the attic.
Logan slowly crawled on her belly to reach her dead sister. She saw her reflection in her vacant empty eyes. She looked just like the lifeless dolls she saw in store windows. She grabbed the cold hand of her sister and held it. She did not care about the blood pooling around the body and covering the front of her shirt.
'Casey' had grabbed a broom from the closet on the side of the hallway and banged it against the attic door. When it opened, a ladder fell out leading into the darkness above. She went back to the little girl and pried her away from her dead sister.
Logan cried and thrashed in the woman’s grip, as the woman hauled her up into the attic. The woman carelessly tossed her into the darkness. 'Casey' closed the attic door behind her to ensure the little girl couldn’t escape. She turned to the dead body, stepped up to her and kicked her rolling her onto her back.
"Dead men tell no tales, so where is your social security card?" 'Casey' rummaged through the pockets and raided the body of her wallet and various other objects. She looked at a gold plated watch with a pearl face.
"Who do you sleep with to get a gem like this, little slut?" She slipped the watch on, "well, it matters not now. It’s mine, everything will be mine."
'Casey' shut the door and locked it. She rummaged through the kitchen for something to eat. "Are you hungry, you little fucking brat? I bet you want me to send you a little snack up there for you to munch on!"
Logan numbly cried, as she curled up into a ball where she laid.
"Well fuck you too. I was trying to be nice! I mean I didn’t want to shoot this asshole, but I doubt she would let me win no taxes for life. Plus, she had a gun! She could have killed me!" 'Casey' grabbed the bag of remaining chips and sat on the couch. "I wonder how many mother fuckers named Casey died so far. Don’t you?" She flipped on the television.
Logan heard through the rafters, the people screaming from the screen. The mechanical laugher of the lady below disrupted it! "Well shit! These Idiots are insane. I swear they only wanted an excuse to kill people."
Logan stopped crying, as ice began to fill her heart and she silently listened to the gunshots, the screams and the concerned voice of the newscaster. Her mind echoed the last words of her sister and the maniacal laughter of the lady who killed her.

SACRED SWAN

Head bowed, flowing across the water 
Like an organic sepulchre,
Lost in the writhing reeds
It raises its head once more,
Glancing mutely around 
It sighs, its breath dying in the snow.
A symbol of light,
The swan is transfigued.

Monday 20 February 2017

how absurd

How absurd to stand
On moving land, 
To touch the sky 
As planets roll by

To drink the rain
Knowing from where it came,
To eat fruit and corn grown 
From dead flesh and bone.

To enjoy the heat of the sun,
A vast nuclear bomb,
To breath the air
That burning deisel put there!

Saturday 18 February 2017

TROY

The flames soared high
Above the broken city-
Troy sodden by war
Necks cut, women raped, children
Enslaved. The sea mirroring
The city’s pain, screaming waves
Piling on the shore.
In the dust lay
The groaning towers of Iliam
The beaten 
Shards of a brilliant culture
Felled and fouled
By barbarians.

Life is insurmountable-

Life is insurmountable
The young man said,
As he climbed the stairs
To old age.

Thursday 16 February 2017

ROBERT FROST

Nature’s first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf’s a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day
Nothing gold can stay.

Tuesday 14 February 2017

charles bukowski

I met a genius on the train
today
about 6 years old,
he sat beside me
and as the train 
ran down along the coast
we came to the ocean
and then he looked at me
and said,
it's not pretty.

it was the first time I'd 
realized 
that.

Friday 10 February 2017

MAYA ANGELOU

They have spent their
content of simpering,
holding their lips this
and that way, winding
the lines between
their brows. Old folks
allow their bellies to jiggle like slow
tamborines.
The hollers
rise up and spill
over any way they want.
When old folks laugh, they free the world.
They turn slowly, slyly knowing
the best and the worst
of remembering.
Saliva glistens in
the corners of their mouths,
their heads wobble
on brittle necks, but
their laps
are filled with memories.
When old folks laugh, they consider the promise
of dear painless death, and generously
forgive life for happening
to them.
Book: I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou

walt whitman/oh captain! my captain!

O Captain! my Captain! our fearful trip is done,
The ship has weathered every rack, the prize we sought is won,
The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting,
While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring;
But O heart! heart! heart!
O the bleeding drops of red,
Where on the deck my Captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.

O Captain! my Captain! rise up and hear the bells;
Rise up—for you the flag is flung—for you the bugle trills,
For you bouquets and ribboned wreaths—for you the shores a-crowding,
For you they call, the swaying mass, their eager faces turning;
Here Captain! dear father!
This arm beneath your head!
It is some dream that on the deck,
You’ve fallen cold and dead.

My Captain does not answer, his lips are pale and still;
My father does not feel my arm, he has no pulse nor will;
The ship is anchored safe and sound, its voyage closed and done;
From fearful trip the victor ship comes in with object won;
Exult O shores, and ring O bells!
But I, with mournful tread,
Walk the deck my Captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.
Book: Leaves of Grass by Walt Whitman

Wednesday 8 February 2017

BLOOD DUST

BLOOD DUST

written by: Alison Vail Fuller


Asil is scared… now, of her own mind. Frantic thoughts colliding, smashing into each other: her baby’s “quiet,” the hemorrhaging blood, her family, her need to help, her need to live…
She whispers firmly, “Calm, calm, breathe, breathe…” A lullaby springs from the depths of her soul. “Sleep little moon… sleep, sleep… thine eyes glow twinkles of light…” She sang it last night as she lovingly cradled baby Terak. His big brother, Sayid, twirled Asil’s hair between his small fingers. A four-year-old’s way to self-comfort.
Asil spots a red silk scarf, its delicate beauty the antithesis of the apocalyptic debris surrounding her. The soft scarf still intact from an unrecognizable past, a gift from God, an unrecognizable God.
Asil gnaws at a thread, ripping it from the silk edging, which allows her to tear the scarf right down the middle. She notices faded yellow flowers curling throughout the red fabric––an oasis in the nightmare. She knots the two halves together, then wraps the now rolled strip at the base of her femur. She uses the fragment of strength she has to tighten it like a vice. In spite of excruciating pain, she manages to stop the blood. Lying back, she waits for it to clot.
The torment of her mind starts back up. Their makeshift home, no longer standing, clobbered by some bomb, by some human high above. The gold vase shattered all around her, a family heirloom, in pieces. Shards of gold glistening in the now exposed sun.
Distract, distract, she tells her mind. From the red-orange demons of the blast, mass destruction, shattered lives…
She knew baby Terak stood no chance. She really had no chance either, but somehow survived a heavy metal wall falling over her, creating a triangle of safety. Cutting her but saving her…saving her…but not from the cruel fate of living with death all around her.
Now the blood is only trickling from the tourniquet announcing a chance to live past this minute.
It starts as a small whimper. “Ahhhh--med! Ahhhh-med!” Her fervor and desperate need to see her husband and son give her strength. “AHHHH-MED! Sa-yiiid! Answer me, pleeease!” She knows that her only hope––perhaps her very last hope––is that the blast had hit their shed from the front. It had to have landed at least thirty feet due west in order for her to survive at all. Ahmed and Sayid had left the shed from the back, venturing east to find sticks for the fire, a near impossible task but one that could have saved their lives.
The air is a thick dusty haze saving her perhaps from the brutal discovery of her baby’s remains.
Oh, she had heard the quiet, loud and clear. The deadly quiet as her ears and heart begged for the sound of Terak’s wails. But nothing. Nothing at all. And she knew the deafening quiet was a noise no parent should ever have to hear.
Asil’s next “call-out,” a primal scream, is something in all her thirty-two years of life she has never made before. It seems to start at her tourniquet, just above the empty space where her lower leg and foot used to be. Climbing, climbing up her tattered body: “AHHHH--MEEED!
She fights the desire to give in, to sleep. To sleep means death. Stay conscious, stay conscious. Feel the pain, feel the nightmare, feel it in order to live.
“Ahhhh-med! Saaa-yiiid! Answer me, answer me, pleeease!“
Blinking away new blood that is making its way into her eyes, she realizes that the wall or some shrapnel must have hit her in the head. This prompts her to yell again, up and out of the rubble. If only she could know that they made it. Her four-year-old, with a chance at life. Perhaps a father by his side. That’s all she needs as death taunts her.
“Ahhhhmed!“ Her voice is now fading. Her body wants to move, to crawl like baby Terak when he still had a chance at life. Only there is nowhere to go, no room between the jagged rock and debris.“Sa-yiiiid!”
And as she starts to sink into the dizziness, she hears it. She hears it!
“As-iiil! As-iiiil! Maaaa-ma! Ma-ma!” The sobbing scream of her name, not from one but from two! Her man and her boy. They are moving things to get to her. The frantic and terrified screams are agonizing, but the strength she hears in their voices fills her with happiness, a painful happiness. The screams are getting closer.
That’s when Asil allows herself to drift off. As she slowly gives in, she feels a lightness in her heart. This feeling overcomes her as she sinks into death or her new life. Either way, it’s the wondrous feeling of hope.

Tuesday 7 February 2017

THE VILE/short story by NESH

She was searching for one thing that she held dearly with and cursed herself for losing it. She could make herself another one. But this was precious. This was unique. The one that Talharino himself had made. The name brought a lump back to her throat. The last days on Earth.
She was doing a major in economics. But who cared about the education, when people were losing a war against the nature. Being the eldest of her two siblings, she had to do odd jobs as an apprentice in the Fermi Physics lab to make the ends meet. That’s where she met him, the celebrated physicist of that century. Talharino was deeply working on the quantum states of super fluids. He had this problem of blanking out, when he confronts a problem. So was the case with super fluids. He had been trying break open the physics behind it for some time now. His colleagues consider him to be a lucky physicist, who stumbled upon the solution for teleportation. Many even considered the idea of cutting down his entire funding, when people fighting to place a crumb of bread in their children’s plate.
She was the only one who stayed back with him, when the entire science program was shut down. The Government couldn’t take it anymore and was worried only about the situation in hand than the hope for tomorrow.
‘I am trying to provide a future to our species. But they are fighting a lost war.’ He would use to say.
She would just smile away. She was too young to understand then. She never understood what his research meant. To her the lab is a source of food and shelter for her and her sisters from the cruel clutches of nature. The colleges were closed, the shops never opened. The government stopped supplying the food capsules weeks back. Hundreds died out of hunger, while the rest left their ancestral city to army camps.
She was taking the spoiled sandwich from the cafeteria’s vending machine. Her sisters have been starving for days now.
‘Good Lord!’ She screamed ‘You scared me profes…’ Talharino was standing behind her, when she closed the door. But there was something odd on his appearance. He was much younger and all his bald spots are gone. He had this pulsating eyes that was looking straight at her.
‘Use this. And come back for me’ said coldly and handed her a vile. She examined it. To her curious eyes, the vile seemed empty.
‘Professor this vile is empty and how do I…’ before she could complete he vanished. She looked around to find only the empty vile in her hand.
She ran back to the collider screening every room on the way to find it all empty. Her thoughts ran to the younger version of Talharino whom she just met. Was the professor in any trouble? Was he just trying to prank her, which was very unlikely for a person of his demeanour. Her heart skipped a beat. Was he wearing a wig to scare her off? If so, he has succeeded. And what is this vile?
‘Professor? Professor?’ She ran to collider control room. Every system was running properly, except the data collection unit. She made a mental note to ask professor about it, after she confronts him about the small act he displayed.
The vibrant expression was now gone form his face. He looked to be in a sleep now. I could have believed it if not for all of the blood. How can so much blood come from one body? The hole in his head and the gun in his hand told a story of messy end. His body was abandoned on the cold white floor, now stained with his crimson blood.
‘The vile’ she came back to her senses. She now knew where she had kept it. Sprinting to her cupboard, which was as messy as her cabin. She took the vile breathed in the elixir and closed her eyes.
The lush green trees and the tinge of fresh air hit her senses. That’s the earth she remembered. Amongst the dancing trees and falling snow, he walked towards her.
‘Talharino’ was all she could say.

Saturday 4 February 2017

Thursday 2 February 2017